Actually, it’s not funny. A few days ago I broke my sewing machine. I’ve had it for 4 months and was sewing away on a fairly light knit fabric when it got caught up. So I took the fabric out and started to sew again, but the machine was suddenly labouring to move…
To supply a little bit of background, I’ve been wanting a sewing machine for about 2 years and finally got one for my birthday this year. And whether it is all in my head or not, I have felt that God has stirred this interest in sewing in me. It’s a great hobby for extracting creative juices and also for having something to do besides looking after the little ones, but I have felt that it’s for more than that…sort of like, someday, somehow, there will be an opportunity for ministry.
I am pleased to say that my first response when the machine broke was…’well, if God wants me to sew then it will all work out’ so I wasn’t really too concerned. Yes, very pleased indeed…needless to say, it wasn’t long before the devil (and when I say the devil, I don’t mean the actual devil…I’m sure he’s way to busy to bother with me…) began to put thoughts of ‘it’s not fair’ in my head. Yes, I began to pout, and I felt quite deserving of my grumble…after all, I’m just trying to follow God’s leading, and now look what’s happened!
Several days went on after this. I have dropped my sewing machine off at the store and will hopefully get it fixed under warranty. However, on the way home I was thinking of my response and was a little disappointed in myself for letting those second thoughts push their way in and so I apologized to God and will endeavour to have the, and KEEP the first response I had, in all situations…and that’s when thoughts flooded into my head of all the times ‘it’s not fair’ was my first and only thought in MANY things in my life. It seems somewhat easy to have a good response when you feel you are following in God’s leading, but what about all the times in life when life has just plain been not fair? Oh, I’ve got my work cut out for me…being a Christian is not easy!